So, it’s the 8th of December and the house is decorated…..but I’m still trying to feel that holiday excitement, motivation, joy. Don’t misunderstand, I am loving the lights at night. And the decorations soothe my soul. But the rest……
There is no holiday baking planned at this point.
There are no presents bought yet.
There are no celebrations on the calendar save the quilt guild’s annual party. And honestly if it wasn’t for installation of 2025 officers, I probably would skip it.
Am I depressed? No, I don’t think so. We have company this weekend that I’ve enjoyed. I spent time teaching pressure canning to a friend and enjoyed every minute. I’m looking forward to growing the etsy shop in the future. I’m enjoying cross stitching and gardening and watching kitten antics and dog reactions.
I’m just not feeling most of the traditional Christmas stuff this year. And I’m usually the one person in the house who is all “yay it’s Christmas”. Maybe that’s it, the one person in the house? Although to be honest my husband will gain his holiday spirit about five days before the holiday if tradition holds true.
I love to bake….. I have made no plans to bake anything.
I love holiday music, I’ve only turned it on twice since Thanksgiving.
Perhaps this is the year to just sit still and treasure the quiet and calm.
Perhaps……. My fear is that of becoming that cynical grouchy old person who doesn’t find joy in anything. I’ve watched that over and over in my family, we have one of those living with us now. I don’t want to become that. But to force the joy is inauthentic this year.
So I’ll walk away from the cross stitch stand and pick up the remote and turn on the music and maybe light some LED candles (safety with a kitten is important). I’ll hug my elderly Nissa before I give her the next round of medications and somewhere down the line I’ll find that holiday spirit….. I do miss it.
Goneaway Quilting 
Me too! Just cannot get a real grasp on it! Lou’s health issues and bicycle accident and traumatic brain injury have taken a toll! Maybe as we get a little closer. Going to some concerts and perhaps that will trigger the fun feelings! Susan
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You’ve had a hard year. I hope the concerts help! If I was closer, I’d go with you.
Awww! That would be so welcome ! Music heals, and we sure could use some healing!!! HUGS..
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I love your posts Judy. Life can be so busy, sometimes it’s hard to focus on everything. After a lot of health issues this year I have managed to feel the Christmas spirit early.
loneliness, depression, and our own mortality can just a teeny, weeny little bit dull our spirit. When you’re the only one left, you sometimes wish you had more going on! Some wine, sitting by the tree, some chocolate, tell your husband something funny….you’ll get your spark back! And Santa and baby Jesus will be here soon!
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Jan! Great to hear from you! It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you. Are you still a member of Hickory guild?
I think this is really normal. I haven’t been as festive myself as usual and I think some of it for me is that I haven’t had music in my house since my CD player broke. I actually went online and ordered a used one just like my old one (it said it was fully functional – cross your fingers). It should be here by Saturday and then I’m going to hook it up to my tower (I still have one), and put some Christmas music on 🙂